I absolutely loved this song and the video when I first heard/saw it. The band, Black Nielson, has been broken up since 2005 so the band itself I suppose is no longer very relevant. However, could a "Love Song To Chan Marshall" ever be irrelevant?
I am not sure what it is about my recent rekindled obsession with Chan Marshall. I could always cite one of my favorite quotes, "beauty inspires obsession." I guess it was the dream. She was a complete bitch in it to me, which well a girl likes. I guess it's seeing her soon (although had it not been the dream I would not have bought the tickets.) I guess it's, needing something like her. Something that tugs, that moves, that puzzles, that intrigues, that punches your half asleep Passion right in the face and says "hey, you see this?" "Yeah, wake up." It's that whole fine line between 'do you want this person or do you really just want to be this person?' My answer obviously is both.
Cat Power- Lost Someone (Live)
I think painting any sort of celebrity or a famous person (some could argue Chan is or is not, but she clearly is a known person) is very embarrassing (yes, painting political figures was painful hence.) Which is a shame. Really I just want to paint her and give it to her before the show so she would love me forever. (Dork!)
I was compelled to write a sort of an essay after somewhat randomly contemplating the relationship of Henry Miller, Anais Nin, and June Miller tonight. Then watching this clip from the movie "Henry and June" and especially hearing the lines "You just want experience. You're a writer. You make love to whatever you need" got me in that special place and made me want to touch upon a subject I often ponder around and about-
This is a very powerful scene from the movie “Henry and June," the point in which their respectably established roles all at once are played out, stripped, swapped, dropped, exposed, switched, regained, etc, etc. Everyone is honest, lying, the victim, the manipulator, and all of these conflicting emotions are actually being felt genuinely. How is this possible? The only answer is that it just seems to be the nature of the artist and the muse relationship.
Artist and muse dynamic has always been something I’ve been intrigued by. It is an intricate and delicate relationship that never is simply what it seems to be, what it ought to be- one that inspires and one that is inspired, then both benefit, grow, and compliment one another with the most beautiful and satisfying results (consistently and continuously) may it be a piece of art work, song, poem, or a book.
The lines often are blurred. The role, also. Is it that the artist takes because he/she is in power and the muse gives because he/she gives up power. Or the artist relays because he/she is powerless while the muse is powerful and controls. Could it ever be equal? A partnership? As with most things in life balance seems to be the most difficult thing to find in this relationship. And when a product (painting, song, poem, or story) is presented is it to satisfy only the artist, only the muse, ideally both but how easily is this achieved? Is it possible? The artist is selfish to portray and steal from the muse what he/she only wishes to while the muse is vain and self-important expecting to be portrayed as his/her fantasy self. For both to be satisfied the process seems masturbatory for both parties and if both are dissatisfied, completely volatile and destructive and even worse, wasteful.
Ultimately I believe that since it is the artist who has the creative power with it, also holds the responsibility. But the artist temperament often gives little room for maintaining full control. Is it then always one the master and the other the slave where neither ever stays as one and the role changes without clear boundaries that can ever be set? At any moment the power can shift, there never seems to be stability. But this may be what drives it. Those that create and those that want to be at the heart of it, perhaps can not exist in stability or wish to.
The relationships of Henry, Anais, and June is especially interesting and telling of the confusing nature of the artist-muse relationship because the two artists (writers) perceive the same muse, June, in two very different perspectives which lead to a creation of two very different literary characters. All the while Henry and Anais also are powerless to June under different circumstances leading up to and after the creative process. June's expectations and needs too vary for the two. And through out it all there are no clear boundaries or sensibility in the dynamic that at times is explosive creatively and beautifully while at other times explosive in the ugliest ways.
Recommended reads-
Tropic of Cancer Henry Miller Henry and June Anais Nin
Michelle Jane Lee’s art is minimalist in form yet muscular in content. There is a complexity, density; to put it simply, there is a lot of heart in her often times sparse drawings and paintings.
She is about going back to the moment of childhood possibility before our imaginations become impoverished and our options seemingly circumscribed. Her work reminds us that things could be different, if only we are brave enough to embrace the free fall, letting go of all of our prosthetics that keep us from realizing our freedom.
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